Do I still have watchers?

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Who the fuck knows?

It has been ages.
I'd really like to write again.
I feel like I have lost a huge part of who I am.
I have become this quiet little girl that is too fucking shy to do so much as LOOK UP.
Whennnnn the fuck did shit happen?
Seriously?
This is who I am going to be for the rest of my life?
I can't.
Sorry, current life. No Can Do.

I was reading through some of my favorite galleries and I saw comments I had written,
it was like I had never been that person.
I had no memory At All of writing some of it.
Same with my gallery.
It was like I was possessed.
Or maybe I'm possessed now.
By some hideous boring fucking
old lady.

Ugh.

I have to find myself again.
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BeyondJen's avatar
Just read this now, obviously, and was struck by how a lot of it sounds a lot like what we were recently talking about. I'm glad you're working on finding yourself again. One of your comments, you said you were built of passion and crumbled, and you need to put yourself back together. I don't know about the rest of it, but I do know you're still pure passion, maybe just a little buried under some other things. I have no doubt you'll find what you're looking for. <3